I May Not Know What I Want, But I Do Know What I Don’t Want

Like many, I entered college without a clear sense of purpose, just following a path laid out for me by others.

I quickly realized I was deeply disconnected from what truly mattered.

The stress of school, a lack of discipline, poor habits, and the general pressures of the college lifestyle left me burned out and on academic probation.

One day, stuck in a sea of red brake lights and stop lights on my way home from a long day of school it hit me, everything in my body was screaming stop.

I needed to break away and reconnect with myself. The exact message was “If this is what society is, then I want no part of it. Wasting my life in daily traffic, pushing forward in school for the sake of having a degree. This isn’t what the human experience was meant to be… I may not know what I want, but I do know what I don’t want”

Rooted in the Body: Choosing a Holistic Path

Healed and inspired, I re-enrolled in college, intending to become a nurse, or at least explore what the medical system could offer.

But the deeper I went, the more I realized Western medicine wasn’t the path for me. With parents who were medicinal hemp farmers, I was already questioning why hospitals ignored natural, time-honored approaches to healing. I knew my path had to be holistic.

Eventually, I returned to the PCT to finish what I hadn’t yet completed. That’s when I met my (now former) partner.

Not long after, we enrolled in massage school and launched our first practice, Grand Rising Wellness. It was a pivotal season of growth, but also one of deep challenge.

For 3.5 years, I lived with unexplained, intense menstrual pain. It started the moment I entered that relationship and ended the moment I left. I had convinced myself it was “right,” even as my body said otherwise. I just didn’t yet know how to listen.

From Addiction to Embodiment

Throughout this time, I also confronted my dependence on cannabis, a habit that had grown through college and the extreme physical demands of trail life. I had used it to numb pain, avoid discomfort, and escape what my body was trying to tell me, but only told myself that it was a harmless habit.

As a student of the CHEK Institute, I was taught to embody what I teach, not just repeat it. That meant facing the hard truth: I wasn’t fully walking my talk. I knew that my habit was the reason for a cascade of many other bad habits & symptoms.

Therefore, I made a soul-level commitment to quit cannabis for 3 years and 3 months. This was the beginning of my second initiation. At the time of writing, I’m nearly two years into that promise. This choice alone has transformed my clarity, energy, intuition, and leadership as a coach and practitioner.

The Invitation I Couldn't Refuse…

The very next day, I received a last-minute new client from out of state, who I’d previously turned away due to a scheduling mix-up. Thirty minutes into her session, she paused and told me I felt incredibly intuitive, then asked if she could guide me through a CranioSacral session right there on the table. I immediately said yes. She began to talk me through a technique, but before she could finish, my hands were already there. I had intuitively landed exactly where the body was asking for contact.

That moment cracked me wide open. I knew, this is it. This is the work I’m meant to do.

This was the beginning of my third initiation.

That day I realized something profound: my intuition had always been right. It was time to start trusting it, even when the world around me didn’t agree. I signed up for the course and never looked back.

My Healing Became My Offering

These experiences, & the choice to follow my inner knowing, led to the creation of Heart Wisdom. My work now helps others reconnect with their own inner compass.

I offer CranioSacral Therapy and bodywork, holistic lifestyle coaching, breathwork, emotional transmutation, and ThetaHealing. These tools have transformed my life, and I’m here to guide others to their own freedom, clarity, and embodiment.

I believe the second part of my purpose is to walk others home, to help people live pain-free, reconnect with their body’s messages, and awaken to their most radiant, empowered, and aligned selves.